Sunday, January 23, 2011

Fingers Crossed

Well Ben might be coming home early, not 100% sure yet but hopefully find out by the end of the day. The compound he was at is having trouble with government agreements so basically the place is shut down for awhile until it's all sorted. Which obviously means Ben's not needed out there. In the mean time Ben's been flown back to Port Moresby for a little induction training he missed out on and is staying in this gorgeous hotel, it's cute he feels guilty that he's there pool side soaking up the sun while I'm here struggling with the kids. I been having trouble with Jayden sleeping at night but last night he decided to sleep 6 hours straight but mind you I'm not feeling all that rested. Anyways I'm keeping my fingers crossed about Ben and about to watch some army wives. so I'm outta here.

Fiona xx

Airways Hotel Port Moresby (so jealous)

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


I went to the doctors today and she's got me trying this nuvaring contraceptive. It really seems like it may be the thing that works for me considering I'm hopeless at taking a pill every day and she didn't want to give me the implanon because one it doesn't work for everyone and she was saying from my history before, through and after pregnancy I may be a little sensitive to hormones so she didn't want to but something in me permanently in case I didn't cope. At least with the nuvaring I can remove it and try another type of contraceptive. Fingers crossed it works =)

Fiona xx

We have a plan

So it's been nearly 2 weeks since Ben left and things are doing ok. It got a little hard in the middle there for a bit because Ben's computer decided to shit it self and pretty much it was 80% of how we kept in contact but he managed to get the IT guy to fix it =)

We have finally come up with a plan for the future and where we want to be to raise the children. It was a little confusing for awhile because of numerous factors like money, timing, family, etc but for now we have a plan even if it doesn't work out it's something to look forward to and focus on right now.
Once Ben gets back I'm heading back to Nowra. If the house doesn't sell which we don't think it will considering christmas, new year and now Australia wide floods it's just def a hectic time but anyway..
If it doesn't Ben consolidates all his loans into one and we go through the process of trying to rent it out so we can move permanently to Perth =) I might be there for 6 months or so but at least I'm out of this hectic household here at mums and I can get Max back into the same school he was in hopefully.
If the house does sell then we are going to hopefully have a 3 month settlement and in that time we will look for rentals in Perth and be there within 3 month..
Either way we are moving to Perth yay!! =) bring on the beach. We've done a little research into some areas so far we are looking at Rockingham, Mandurah or surrounding areas in between.

I've also made the step into organising a mediation session for Leigh and I so I can order drug testing before he see's Max again since I found out he is doing drugs while Max is in his care. Aside from the drugs I have to constanly chase up child support, so I can't be bothered anymore. Also works in my favour because I am 100% possitive he will fail the test so makes it easier to move to Perth. If he does become clean he has family in Perth so he can come see Max there.

anyways the kids are doing well but def missing daddy! but yeah other than that, that's all for now.

Fiona xx

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Missing Him

Ben arrived at the compound/camp where he's staying. I feel bad for him, he's currently living and working in a shipping container. I got to speak to him a little bit today which was comforting, I miss him so much. I'm doing ok, I have my little emotional out burst but overall I'm doing ok. today was 30 degrees outside and here I am curled up inside in a jumper and trackies, I had no idea how hot it was, it just shows you I didnt leave the house. Today I didnt feel like dealing with anyone, I wanted to be left alone to cry if I wanted to without feeling bad or without someone thinking I was being negative and depressing. I know it'll get easier, it just seems so different this time. Normally when Ben had to leave it was still in the same country and I could still talk to him and txt him but now he's in a remote country with limited phone service and only plug in internet so no facetime it just seems harder with the lack of communication. I cling onto phone calls and emails since I don't get them as often as I like. Not to mention I think it's harder also because I have Jayden aswell. I just wish our family could have been together a little longer before he had to go.

Tomorrow I hope I feel better since I have a lot I need to do. I need to post 2 letters, see Kim in the morning and Kylie in the arvo. Then I need to pick up my little man =) I miss him so much too and it's been harder since he hasn't been around to keep me on my toes. 
I can't wait until monday when clare gets back, things just seem a lot more in order when she is around. Oh well i guess I better hit the shower and try and get some shut eye.

Fiona xx

Pictures of Bens room/shoebox

His office

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

A New Start

So I have an old blog but thought I'd start a new one, I've put up a link to my OLD BLOG HERE because I'm just gonna start where I left off. 

A lot has happened since I last blogged. 
Obviously Christmas was one of them so you can only imagine how chaotic that was. Then Boxing day our little bubba decided to make an appearance with only LITERALLY 1 hour notice. Instead of gracefully going through all stages of labor, I went into active labor straight away resulting in nearly having him in the car but all in all he was a healthy 8lb 5oz, 50.5cm little bubba named Jayden Glenn. I delivered at 10:35am and was out of hospital at 8pm that night. Max has been absolutely wonderful with him and he is just the cutest towards him, he loves being a big brother and helping out. It is def a lot of work but so far it has been 110% worth it.

On a sadder note Ben left for PNG this morning, he was pretty upset having to leave me with the kids at such short notice but at least he was able to help out with Jayden for the first week. He's so great with him and I can't wait for him to come home already. I miss him so much and it hasn't even been 24 hours. He has arrived safely to a motel there and heads out to the compound he'll be staying at in the morning. I've been pretty numb all day with a few little emotional out burst but overall I'm coping for the mean time. I've been finding comfort in episodes of army wives from the start lol and also comfort in Jayden as I don't have Max until friday so been good having baby and me time with lots of cuddles and no distractions =)

Anyways I better head off, since Jaydens still figuring out his feeding and sleep scheduals any rest I can get goes a long way 

Fiona xx