We Have a Home!

I''m so happy!! we finally found a home to settle into in Ballarat. I'm so glad to be out of my mum's house and into my own space with all my stuff! Thirteen of us at any one time at mum's was getting a little chaotic!

I have photo's of the house from the realestate listing but yet to have any photo's with our furniture! Well considering we only moved in today you can imagine it's still quite un tidy lol.

I'll soon update with some new photo's!

xx

Shopping!!

I'm a girl that loves to shop!

Lots of new things mostly for the family but you know how it is when you have kids and a loving partner lol.

At the moment I am absolutely obsessed with Etsy.com they have the coolest stuff on there

I bought a blanket for Jayden's surf theme nursery but it's so cute and vintage I might have to keep it for myself lol - Thanks to Etsy shop Verdurebydesign

Also got a bunting for his room! also very cute.. - Thanks to Etsy shop Smith&Bird

I had this security blanket made for Jayden which I can attach his dummy to. It has a photo of him and Ben so he can keep Daddy close when he goes away. I absolutely love it. I have photo's but am still waiting for it in the mail. It's more then I dreamed of and can't wait to show it off. It's deff one of a kind - Thanks to Gemma from Etsy shop GemmaPayne She was so lovely to deal with and listened to my every request and I am truly grateful that she could make something to special for Jayden and Daddy. 

 It has soft minky on the back

The dummy chain I got also in the surf theme with Jayden's name on it -
Thanks to Etsy shop MichaAndMandy

I want to get a two toned cot and dresser for his room, it's the modern look and would go great with his stuff that I already have.

 I'm off to bed

Fiona xx

Been Awhile!

Ok so Ben didn't come home early =( but on the plus side only 3 more sleeps yay!! 

So much has happened since last time I blogged. For starters the Perth plan a total bust. Dunno really think Ben freaked out and wants to be closer to his family which I get but still a little disappointing. I'm happy where he is and glad to have him so I guess I can't complain.

I finally have the ball rolling with this mediation and lawyers stuff so I can get Max away from Leigh soon until he's off stupid drugs because it scares the hell out of me that Max isn't safe =(

Jayden is great getting so big. Max is starting to play up with lack of routine so I'm dying to get our own place where-ever that may be and putting him back in school.

Um I'm so tired I thought I was able to remember all the things to update but wow really can't think or focus lol

Fiona xx

Fingers Crossed

Well Ben might be coming home early, not 100% sure yet but hopefully find out by the end of the day. The compound he was at is having trouble with government agreements so basically the place is shut down for awhile until it's all sorted. Which obviously means Ben's not needed out there. In the mean time Ben's been flown back to Port Moresby for a little induction training he missed out on and is staying in this gorgeous hotel, it's cute he feels guilty that he's there pool side soaking up the sun while I'm here struggling with the kids. I been having trouble with Jayden sleeping at night but last night he decided to sleep 6 hours straight but mind you I'm not feeling all that rested. Anyways I'm keeping my fingers crossed about Ben and about to watch some army wives. so I'm outta here.

Fiona xx

Airways Hotel Port Moresby (so jealous)

Doctors

I went to the doctors today and she's got me trying this nuvaring contraceptive. It really seems like it may be the thing that works for me considering I'm hopeless at taking a pill every day and she didn't want to give me the implanon because one it doesn't work for everyone and she was saying from my history before, through and after pregnancy I may be a little sensitive to hormones so she didn't want to but something in me permanently in case I didn't cope. At least with the nuvaring I can remove it and try another type of contraceptive. Fingers crossed it works =)

Fiona xx

We have a plan

So it's been nearly 2 weeks since Ben left and things are doing ok. It got a little hard in the middle there for a bit because Ben's computer decided to shit it self and pretty much it was 80% of how we kept in contact but he managed to get the IT guy to fix it =)

We have finally come up with a plan for the future and where we want to be to raise the children. It was a little confusing for awhile because of numerous factors like money, timing, family, etc but for now we have a plan even if it doesn't work out it's something to look forward to and focus on right now.

Once Ben gets back I'm heading back to Nowra. If the house doesn't sell which we don't think it will considering christmas, new year and now Australia wide floods it's just def a hectic time but anyway..

If it doesn't Ben consolidates all his loans into one and we go through the process of trying to rent it out so we can move permanently to Perth =) I might be there for 6 months or so but at least I'm out of this hectic household here at mums and I can get Max back into the same school he was in hopefully.

If the house does sell then we are going to hopefully have a 3 month settlement and in that time we will look for rentals in Perth and be there within 3 month..

Either way we are moving to Perth yay!! =) bring on the beach. We've done a little research into some areas so far we are looking at Rockingham, Mandurah or surrounding areas in between.

I've also made the step into organising a mediation session for Leigh and I so I can order drug testing before he see's Max again since I found out he is doing drugs while Max is in his care. Aside from the drugs I have to constanly chase up child support, so I can't be bothered anymore. Also works in my favour because I am 100% possitive he will fail the test so makes it easier to move to Perth. If he does become clean he has family in Perth so he can come see Max there.

anyways the kids are doing well but def missing daddy! but yeah other than that, that's all for now.

Fiona xx

Missing Him

Ben arrived at the compound/camp where he's staying. I feel bad for him, he's currently living and working in a shipping container. I got to speak to him a little bit today which was comforting, I miss him so much. I'm doing ok, I have my little emotional out burst but overall I'm doing ok. today was 30 degrees outside and here I am curled up inside in a jumper and trackies, I had no idea how hot it was, it just shows you I didnt leave the house. Today I didnt feel like dealing with anyone, I wanted to be left alone to cry if I wanted to without feeling bad or without someone thinking I was being negative and depressing. I know it'll get easier, it just seems so different this time. Normally when Ben had to leave it was still in the same country and I could still talk to him and txt him but now he's in a remote country with limited phone service and only plug in internet so no facetime it just seems harder with the lack of communication. I cling onto phone calls and emails since I don't get them as often as I like. Not to mention I think it's harder also because I have Jayden aswell. I just wish our family could have been together a little longer before he had to go.

Tomorrow I hope I feel better since I have a lot I need to do. I need to post 2 letters, see Kim in the morning and Kylie in the arvo. Then I need to pick up my little man =) I miss him so much too and it's been harder since he hasn't been around to keep me on my toes. 

I can't wait until monday when clare gets back, things just seem a lot more in order when she is around. Oh well i guess I better hit the shower and try and get some shut eye.

Fiona xx

Pictures of Bens room/shoebox

His office