Baking

So lately I feel like my friends have no time for me. Ben left a few days ago and so I've never felt so lonely. The kids have being playing up which is quite normal when Ben leaves and I think most of the reason Max is playing up is simply his age, he's just adapted this awful 4 year old attitude. I miss my dad terribly, he'd always be there when I needed someone but I'm just glad he's safe after that earthquake and tsunami warning over in indonesia. 

I decided to keep my mind occupied today by doing some baking, not that I have anyone to bake for and with the few extra kilo's I've put on this year I surely don't need any cupcakes, they have made home in my fridge for now hahaha I also made some cake push pops.

Happy B'day Jess!!

Ok so I was having a moment and was feeling a little useless last time I blogged but I couldn't be better! I have a wonderful family and friends who support me and uni well it's crazy and challenging but it's great to. It's only going to be a quick one as I really need to start walking out the door but thought I'd leave with some photos from over the weekend.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!! I hope you had a fabulous day, I had an amazing time with amazing people!! Long live wonderful memories :)

It was an awesome St Patrick's day theme birthday :)

On the amazing people note, I'm not even sure if I've blogged but Nicole, Cory, Jess and Jarrod are now coming to my wedding and I'm soo excited not long now!! I miss Clare bear terribly too :( can't wait to be sun baking with them all in just over 6 weeks :)

For Jess's b'day present we organised flights for her to no where else but QLD, she really wanted to be there for us at the wedding and it was the only thing that I could think of as she's the girl that wants nothing and has everything hehehe :) so this was perfect and I was happy, she absolutely loved it :)

I printed up her itinerary and popped it in an envelope. I then designed a boarding pass style card/message and attached it to the front of the envelope, it looked great.

The time has come and gone again.

Ben's been home and is now off on his travels again. It doesn't get any easier each time he leaves us. If you had of asked me a couple years ago whether I could see myself dealing with the distance the answer would have been no. Sometimes I have great strength and other times I feel like I'm falling apart. I guess there's just great sacrifice for love and it's not everyday people can do it which makes me more proud of my determination to keep a great relationship that I do have, strong.

With all that said, Jayden started day care since the last time I blogged. Yesterday was his second day and I think he's enjoying it so far. He seems to be liking the new environment and playing with all the toys but its still hard to let him go when i drop him off. I wish I could get him in the same center Max is in but there are no spots available just yet.

It's Bens birthday soon and have no idea what to do. I normally have something up my sleeve but so lost for ideas :S

Wedding plans are coming along nicely, invitations are nearly all done just have to collect some information and brochures on our Dec pre wedding trip. I haven't even sent out all the save the dates yet but talk about being ahead with all the planning wow!!

Anyways it's getting late and I'm feeling drowsy! Night!

So much since the last.

Okay so pretty much we found a house, we've moved and settled in. Ben's away on journeys again. Last time he was a way they had a major riot with the locals breaking into the compound and a lot of people were injured. He didnt want to tell me about it while he was there because he knew it would stress me out. I feel very un easy now that he's gone again, If he takes to long in replying to messages I automatically freak out. 

But so far things have been ok.. On the home front Ash a new friend I have made here in Ballarat is lovely who come's and keeps me company. We take the kids to the play center to let them have a run around. It helps in a town I know nothing about nor where anything is to at least have a friend.

I have also decided to take on a new business adventure making baby blankets. I had a few made for Jayden but I now want to share my idea's around and sell them to other people. My website is www.cuddleupkids.com.au I have been soooo busy trying to set that up that the time Ben has been gone has gone a little bit quicker. 

Also we've put Max into a school and he absolutely loves it, he was getting so cooped up at home but glad he has something he looks forward to. He'll also be starting swimming next term, so that also will be very exciting for him. He turns 3 in a couple of weeks, oh how they grow up so quickly, he's my little baby =S 

Well anyway just wanted to finally do an update. 

I've also half finished Jaydens surf theme nursery, I ended up getting the two tone furniture and I love it. Now all it needs is a few wall hangings and maybe a rug.

Theres a nice ladder shelf and wardrobes on the other side of the room but forgot to take photos, once it's done I'll take some more.

Anyways I really need to add some updated photo's of the kids on the website so I better do that. www.fiona-catherine.weebly.com.au 

Fiona xx

We Have a Home!

I''m so happy!! we finally found a home to settle into in Ballarat. I'm so glad to be out of my mum's house and into my own space with all my stuff! Thirteen of us at any one time at mum's was getting a little chaotic!

I have photo's of the house from the realestate listing but yet to have any photo's with our furniture! Well considering we only moved in today you can imagine it's still quite un tidy lol.

I'll soon update with some new photo's!

xx

Been Awhile!

Ok so Ben didn't come home early =( but on the plus side only 3 more sleeps yay!! 

So much has happened since last time I blogged. For starters the Perth plan a total bust. Dunno really think Ben freaked out and wants to be closer to his family which I get but still a little disappointing. I'm happy where he is and glad to have him so I guess I can't complain.

I finally have the ball rolling with this mediation and lawyers stuff so I can get Max away from Leigh soon until he's off stupid drugs because it scares the hell out of me that Max isn't safe =(

Jayden is great getting so big. Max is starting to play up with lack of routine so I'm dying to get our own place where-ever that may be and putting him back in school.

Um I'm so tired I thought I was able to remember all the things to update but wow really can't think or focus lol

Fiona xx

Doctors

I went to the doctors today and she's got me trying this nuvaring contraceptive. It really seems like it may be the thing that works for me considering I'm hopeless at taking a pill every day and she didn't want to give me the implanon because one it doesn't work for everyone and she was saying from my history before, through and after pregnancy I may be a little sensitive to hormones so she didn't want to but something in me permanently in case I didn't cope. At least with the nuvaring I can remove it and try another type of contraceptive. Fingers crossed it works =)

Fiona xx